Just Keep Moving

Apprehension? Trepidation? I think I was actually facing my first day of P90x with nervous anticipation. Not the bad kinda nervous, mind you. More like the case of butterflies you get in your tummy when you know something exciting is about it happen. And it did.

I made up my mind at the outset to not worry about keeping up or executing each move perfectly. Power 90 and P90 Master Series taught me about listening to my body, knowing when to step back a little, and most of all, MODIFYING! When I first began this journey 7 months ago, I couldn't even launch my hefty hiney up off the floor to do a simple jumping jack. So I modified. The primary thought in my brain throughout has been to "just keep moving." Well, secondary to "just press play, that is." Oh, and I'll add a third: "laugh at yourself."

"Just keep moving." An excellent mantra for life in general, I think. Because inertia, both the physical and the mental kind, is what got me into this state to begin with. I have learned that what you tell yourself, your entire internal dialogue, will spill over into your physical life and what you make of it - how you execute it.

With "just keep moving" in mind, I confidently launched into my first day of P90x - Cardio Synergistics. Yes, several modifications were necessary. Still, I was completely taken aback by how many of the moves I WAS able to execute perfectly. At one point, I found myself rolling about on the floor, in the midst of the superman/banana moves, going so fast and so clumsily that I was breathless with laughter.

But here's the kicker, the entire point of my little story today. I was hot, sweaty, & breathing hard. Then the thought came that "this feels GOOD!" I happened to glance up at the timer on the dvd counting down the minutes & seconds. I was 6 minutes away from the end. And I was feeling GOOD. I was feeling POWERFUL. At that moment, they were taking a water break and I was bent over laughing & laughing. And then I found myself crying.  Well, laughing and crying. HAPPY TEARS! Don't know quite how to describe what that moment felt like. I was elated, ecstatic. Who was this person who was actually able to do this?  7 months ago, I couldn't do a jumping jack. Today, I can do them ALL and then some. Tomorrow ... well, I've got my hopes set high.

P90X/Day2